tough times are to build you up

I was looking thru friendster profiles and blogs of my friends.
I really thank God for giving me this life and all the trials that He had put me through.
Thank God for this life because in His love, I'm made whole. I don't need to hop from guy to guy to find love neither am I sexually broken. And He gave me a spiritual family that is better than my earthly family. In front of there, there is no need to be masked, I can cry when I'm sad, smile when I'm happy.
Thank God for the trials that He had put me through because thru these trials, I've learnt to hang on and hang on no matter what.
Without the trials, I would have been sucked in by this busy busting poly life. The temptation to join a cca, get involved so that I can get a scholarship and a better standing to get in a local university. Or purely just get involved for friends fame and glory.
Come to think of it, God's plans are beyond our imagination. I thought that PO thing that kept me without church for 2 mths was just to test me. But well, that PO experience kept me going when I was taken down frm ministry to study, when God started to deal with everything inside till today, this busting poly life.
I can hang on to God this easy despite PO and poly life cos I know that once I give up, everything will be gone. My life will then be an empty shell. And I would have wasted that kettle of water that was going to boil.
I think it's cool to be a girl cos we all look far ahead. I daydream all the time about having no curfews, getting into a local uni, having a great marriage, my husband and I prospering in our career, serving God without restriction, my family etc. In every part of that dream, God's hands are in it. How could I give up? All the dreams will be shattered. The fear of not having a happy marriage is scary enough.
As I look at my friends, words can't describe how grateful I'm towards God. His overwhelming fatherly love and those tough times.

Probably this post serves as a reminder to myself - poly is 3 yrs but God is eternity.


muchlove,
YEE