I feel like running away from home someday. If only i didnt have so much responsibility. I really really hate my curfew. To see all my peers having fun out at night, watching late night movies, chilling out at timbre, holland v, demsey or clarkes quay. I feel so loserish sitting here and typing this. I like being a girl but i want my freedom.
Home at 11pm is VERY really early though my mum dont think so. Others can say that 11pm is good enough, some ppl have to be home earlier. But no one realise that how miserable it is to be home early like a loser. And they "console" me without feeling what i feel. I'm okay with being home early if my family is loving or i've a elder bro who will game with me at night or do crazy things at home with me. BUT, my house is not so. Mind you, its a HOUSE not home. It's just an empty hole that im force to return every night, no love no fun.
Kays, im madly craving for alcohol now. I feel like opening my mum's red wine and drink it by myself tonight and get wasted alone. And i really feel like running away frm home someday. Only if i've no responsibility.
I'm like not going shopping tml anymore cos im going to the gym! Maybe shopping friday before CG provided that i wake up early enough. And i'm going to buy tshirts in batam so i will stop wearing tanks wherever i go including sleepovers and srgn central. And tees in batam are very cheap so i can chuck it aside if i cant bring myself to wear them. Tees tees tees, hweeyee said tshirts! I'm feeling so fat now :( the lecturers say that this yr they are bringing us to japan not HK, cheers to that! But i want shopping in HK.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
